i'm torn

today i found out that my so-called-crush already has a crush who i hope it's me but unfortunately it isn't me. disappointed? yes! heartbreaking? you can say that. moving on? haven't think about it yet. but crying? wanna but i can't. i haven't felt this kind of feeling for a long time. it's bittetsweet. bitter cause his heart isn't for me. sweet cause it's nice to know that he already think about this kind of thing (lalalove). i think it's better for me to listen to my mom for a while. concentrate on school first, boys come second. not really following.XDD